Day 16: Positive and negative eating habits emerge & recede

Today I noticed two things as I wandered around the kitchen thinking about a quick breakfast. One showed a positive habit emerging, and the other showed a negative one receding. Since my boss always maintains that you should go with the bad news first when there are both to be had, let's begin with...

A negative eating habit begins to recede: "sneak eating"
The main times when I ate junk food were when nobody was around to judge me for it. In the car on the way to/from work, or at home when everybody was out. The other main times were when I was with so many people (eg at a bbq) that my intake wouldn't be noticed. I call this "sneak eating" because I would be trying to sneak away from the judgements I felt sure others were making about my food intake. Of course, I was never able to sneak away from my own judgements, but they were easier to placate.

Since I have been on the BES, although there have been times when I haven't been 100% strict on myself—eg medicinal cups of green tea, buying Boost-made juices—I have nevertheless not broken the rules in anyway. I have been 100% raw and 100% vegan since Day 1. I have not, therefore, been eating the types of foods that, in the past, I would have eaten alone. I have, however, been engaging in small amounts of sneak eating over the past few days as I got over my negative feelings about the diet. This has mainly taken the form of snacking on organic almond butter, a high-fat easy-access snack. This has only ever been when there was no one around, which to me indicates personal feelings of guilt over the choice.

So, although I have not broken out of the Challenge in any way (and I'm stronger for it), I have minimised but not entirely got rid of sneak eating in my life. This is something that deserves more consideration, I think, because if I can sort it out in the remaining couple of weeks, then I will have made a really significant step in continuing my future weight loss and maintaining my weight once I'm where I want to be.

A positive eating habit begins to emerge: healthy food choices
The reason I noticed the negative habit receding was that, although I was alone in the house, and I looked through the fridge (cheese, yoghurt, bread) and pantry (Dutch ginger biscuits, condiments, pasta sauces) for food for breakfast, I did not take the opportunity to cheat because "no one would ever know", which is the hallmark of sneak eating.

Instead, I chose a banana and an apple and sat down to enjoy them. I didn't have time for a full-on green smoothie, so picking two easy fruits and then eating them was the best option. I have never been a huge fan of fruit, and found it to be unsatisfying and unsustaining in the past. Although it wasn't my favourite breakfast ever, I enjoyed it, and it easily got me through a walk and a 35-minute workout at the gym.

The fact that I was totally content about my decision to have fruit for breakfast (and made that decision so matter-of-factly) is a big change for me.

Current weight: 77.2kg (-4.9kg)
Current body-fat percentage: 36.6% (I won't list the loss anymore, because it changes according to the weight, obviously. Suffice to say, however, that the healthy range for women my age varies, but is generally between the figures 21-33%, so I am in the overweight category, and would like to get to a healthier figure.)
Current feeling: Strong and positive